I always said I wanted to have 3 children and we were blessed with twins right off the bat. When we found out we were pregnant we knew we really wanted a boy and were shocked to find out we were actually having identical twin girls! So when I found out I was pregnant for a second time a little over a year ago we were crossing our fingers for a little baby boy...and sure enough thats exactly what we were having!
I instantly started hearing "Oh a baby boy will melt your heart"..."Boys are the best"..."Boys are the sweetest" and so on....I had no idea. The twins mean the world to me and have been an experience that I truly feel we are lucky to have. We always say we had to have been hand picked to be twin parents. But when they handed Elston to me and I first laid eyes on him everything inside me sank. Within seconds he had me in the palm of his hand. He has been such a joy and fits into our very loud and chaotic family perfectly. I never knew I could love like this.
This was one of my favorite days as a parent, it was one of the first times Elston had baby food followed by his very first sink bath. See, when the twins were infants we felt like we were strictly in survival mode...and some days we still think we are...but we didn't get to really enjoy these moments like we do with Elston. A lot of things that parents of singletons take as bonding times like baths, feedings and cuddles...just didn't happen for us. Baths and feeding were more like a conveyer line. Wash one baby then hand them to dad to get dried and dressed and start washing the next. Feeding....lets just not go there, I don't miss that at all. But life with Elston, one baby, has been incredible. I get to hold him all the time and wear him in a carrier and not have to worry about "the other infant who is screaming for me". Its just so different and I'm loving every minute of it!
One of my goals for 2016 was to be a bit more transparent. We live in a world now where people feel the need to put on a front and pretend that everything in their life is all glitter and rainbows. Look, our house isn't always clean. The dishes aren't always done. The laundry may be washed but not hung in the closets. The lawn might not be mowed. The kids may not be all done up everyday...that stuff doesn't really always matter but its these special little moments that I'll remember the rest of my life! I hope that some of these more personal posts give a little glimpse into our everyday, not so perfect but perfect for us, life!